Monday, February 23, 2009

Where do we draw the line?

Taking into account the thoughts and experiences of those around us including family and friends is absolutely vital at any stage in ones life. Sometimes we may become so emotionally involved in what it is we’ve endeavoured in, it becomes difficult to take a step back and get a good look at the bigger picture, often missing things that would otherwise literally hit us in the face. This is where hearing, comprehending, understanding and implementing come into play. I would even go a step further in suggesting that even the views of those around us, our societies and communities should be taken into account in the thought and decision making process. Before everyone jumps at me, understand that I don’t mean we should live our lives by rules set out by others, I am probably the last person who would see it that way.

I’ve lived a large proportion of my life abiding by what others “see fit” due to circumstances beyond my control. It was one trip to Syria in 2007 which I believe was the beginning to my true venture into adulthood; my eyes were opened to an array of delightfully pleasant as well as painful droplets of reality. I realised that the world was not as simple as I had assumed and not everyone I met during the course of my life looked at me with the same sincere intensions as I did them. In a pivotal moment that was to shape the women I was to become (slight exaggeration) I came to the conclusion that people are so preoccupied with their own lives that they really don’t have the time to probe into mine, so why should I care about what they think at all?

Although I’ve swerved slightly off topic I return to my previous point, reiterating that I cannot but feel its necessary to stay true to ones traditions and cultures, even though society today has severely dented and redefined the two. This anyway was not the point of my writing today. What I wanted to say is that I feel it’s important, as I presume many of you will agree, to listen to those who truly have our best interests at heart. But what happens when what they're telling us contradicts what we believe in? I’m in a dilemma, should I listen to what everyone around me seems to be seeing, but I somehow have been blinded towards, or do I continue, where do I draw the line? I don’t want to be kicking myself in X months or years down the line, knowing I made all the wrong choices, but then again I don’t want to look back and think but what if I had done things differently?

I think the best thing to do is to live life one day at a time, after all what’s meant to happen will happen. I go to bed every night and pray for those I love then when it comes to me, I leave my fate in the hands of God. I mean it from the deepest pinnacle of my heart when I ask God to help me lead my life in a way that he alone see’s fit. I avoid asking for things or for the lack thereof in fear of their consequences because I know in God alone I can trust.

Sitting squashed at one end of the sofa in an awkwardly comfortable position, in my favourite Winne the Pooh pyjamas and warm socks holding a glass of cool apple juice and staring at my uncompleted assignment at 1.30am in the morning, I doubt I could feel more content. I don’t think I care as much anymore, and in doing so, I’m ready to face tomorrow.

8 Comments:

Blogger Hajar Zamzam Ismail said...

May God help you find your path, and bless you for wanting His guidance.

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Blogger Dont Worry! said...

Sincerity if the process of getting ready to face tomorrow would make you uncertain of how to treat yourself or others in a way that you can predict the consequences, then forget it! Its not even worth thinking about! Yes, sometimes the things that we have been taught by those who is close to us contradicts what we believe in....but so what? That shouldn’t be a problem! As long as you keep God in your mind and heart of what he wants from you in terms of action and behaviour, you would then be guided of the true path that you can predict and follow! This morning you complained alot about assignments, life and the number of phone calls you have to do...but like i said, take it as one step at a time! Today we finished the toxicology assignment, tomorrow we will finish the cardiovascular assignment....one at a time, one at a day...take it easy! This whole life is an assignment for us, you can only tackle it with what you can! ;) you need to relax...but anyway thanks for sharing your feelings with us :)

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Anonymous Anonymous said...

You always manage to grab our attention once every blue moon with topics that makes us wonder; what exactly goes on in the life your living?
I may imagine it something completely different what it really is, but whatever the case, what you said in one of the paragraphs towards the end no one could have said it any better.
Don't ever try to live life up to people expectations, at the end of the day no one has your best interest at heart as much as you do and those who genuinely love you. Do whatever it is that makes you happy, your old enough to make wise decisions and I’m sure that if some don’t support you now, one day in the future when they realise how far you have got they will definitely be standing by your side.
As for your writing, keep up the good work!

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